Second Coming

Last week I told you about the first time I experienced a manifestation and today I am going to tell you about the second manifestation that I had and the events leading up to it.  The first I described in detail on  2/18/2010 entitled "The Purpose Behind The Journey".

That manifestation was consumated in 1971 and lasted until 2005 with the passing of Suzanne. 

The time after that was spent in private reflection on the impact that a sudden and unexpected event of that magnitude can have on a life.  Nighttime was the worst.  Many nights were spent fighting the demons of "what could I have done" and "How could I have done it better" and many other creepy crawlies that  made it difficult to get to sleep at a reasonable hour.  But when I felt the tickling, coursing sensation of cortisol running through my veins, I knew that I had come to a fork in the road.  Either I continued on this way until I too passed into another dimension or I got some help to set me onto another journey in this world.   So I contacted a  Counselor who was recommended to me by my Doctor and we talked about grief and the reconciling of the issues of so wrenching a change.  But I needed social support as well.

About that time I got an e-mail.  This was an inquiry to a profile I had posted on a social site that I had completely forgotten about.  It started out by saying "Hi Hotstuff".  While that was flattering, I didn't see much prospect for a relationship with someone from so far away as Syracuse New York.  But the words on the screen took on a warm, kind and considerate flavor with a keen sense of humor.  This lead us to explore more personal interests and likes and dislikes.  So we met for the first time late in 2006.  After that, mutual visits showed that we could have our individual goals and interests within the environment of a partnership with shared goals and interests. In the spring of 2007 we became partners and established a common base in Pennsylvania.

When I mentioned this to my Counselor, the suggestion was made that both situations appeared to be precipitated after a very deep and emotional loss.  And I did agree with that and I could see the trigger being something through the emotions.  But what draws my curiousity is how to manifest knowingly, rationally and deliberately.

Perhaps some of you out there have had similar experiences and would be willing to share so that we could all learn how to improve our lives by controlling our reality.  Let us have your comments please.