As I look back over quite a few decades now, I can see my life as occurring in two periods. The first was approximately 38 years during which I grew older but not wiser and the next in which i grew older and somewhat wiser. I progressed through the teen years, went to school, got a job, got married and had kids just like about probably 90% of Americans in today's culture. Then up jumped the devil. There was good news and bad news. The bad news was my wife wanted to divorce. As it turned out she was right. I had not made progress toward maturity to justify staying together and curiously enough this impeded her progress toward her goals as well. But let me get to the good news because this launched a whole new direction to my life. Slowly, unknowingly but continuously to where I am today.
At that time I became interested in Astrology. I could erect the horoscope because that was a matter of mathematics and I was skilled at that. That was B.C. (Before Computers that is) But then I didn't know what to do with them... what did they mean? ...how could they be useful? So my wife told me of a lecture at the local YWCA where there would be a section on astrology and maybe I could get some useful information from that. And that was the beginning of the good news. There I met Sara Julian and she told me about the Sabian Assembly (http://www.sabian.org/ and http://www.sabianassembly.org/). Golly they had books, they had lessons, they had astrologers and they had Marc Edmund Jones. He was known as the the Dean of American Astrologers. I joined theSabianAssembly immediately. That was in 1969 and I have never looked back. It was in the Sabian Assembly that I learned respect for personality...my own as well as others.
The idea of respect for personality is based on everyone's right to determine his own self-justification.
The implication here is that when we are born, we are all born(1) naked and (2) with freedom of choice. And that is what makes us all equal. So we are free to develop our own game plan for better or worse. Or for that matter to operate without a game plan at all. We have no right to stick our nose into other people's business or help them without being asked and be put off when it is refused.
Now I realize that living with this concept was what was missing in the first half of my life. I made the decisions for my family whether they liked it or not. And Karma demanded that I lost that family. Don't get me wrong. The signals were there. My wife tried to teach me about choice but I didn't listen. But in the second period of my life I came slowly to understand the need to accept this concept. I raised my children by telling them..."don't help me until I ask". The result was that now they know what kind of help I need and they are more willing to give it and this makes us partners instead of father and sons.
Perhaps all is not lost as I go into my third period in this life.
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